My vision blurs,everywhere I see. There is a black cloud that hovers above me all the time. And I can feel myself go down the abyss, I can feel myself twirling in the hurricane.
My thoughts are so jumbled up,my life a mess. Suffocation? Yes that’s the word I can use to describe what i feel. Heaviness in my chest, droopy shoulders,bent knees and a face that don’t know how to smile properly.
The darkness darkens,the cloud thunders ,the rain falls but I feel the wetness on my cheeks. That’s how I feel. That’s exactly how I feel as I get ready. For the people who thinks I’m the happiest and funniest person they’ve met. That’s how I feel as I pick up the most colorful top to go, so that I can easily betray those around me, because I know no one will understand.
I have everything I’ve every wanted but there’s no peace. And you won’t understand that easily.
LIVE WITH ME 